rainy days on sunny days

Why is it that when something amazing is supposed to happen, everything around me crumbles? I booked an indie feature and worked a 14 hour day for one scene. I also missed a shift at work so yet again another suspension is bound to be in my future. God. WHY?! Why can't something just go RIGHT?!

Blah blah blah.

I'm tired, bored, restless, hungry and broke. Today is the day I change my outlook and do something to MAKE IT WORK. Wish me luck.

xo

am

A muted world

I have recently discovered that electronic devices placed directly into your ears will do more harm than good. I literally can not hear out of my left ear because of the damn ear piece I have to use at my job. Really world? Did you just say "That sucks for you!"? No? Oh. Well I thought you did but I CAN'T HEAR YOU! Ugh. It's the weirdest thing ever. But at least with this new development I can thoroughly enjoy my thoughts without much intrusion from others. I have been thinking a lot lately. Should I stay in New York? When am I going to snag a show? I should stop eating carbs. How the hell did my hearing get so bad?! I want a tattoo. Really, I have been contemplating the most interesting things. I'm sure you can tell. 

Anycrap, I am extremely tired after a full day of work so I'm going to go and catch some Z's. 

xo,

am