It's not about the money.. it's about the life you live.

I couldn't be more surprised to be living the life I am living right now. I guess it's mainly because it's taken me 8 months to get to this point, but I didn't think these many days of merriment would have happened. I believe that deep in my heart I knew that I would make it in this big city, but I never considered the challenges I would face in being here. But I know now more than ever that I can not be one of those people to fall back on a plan B. My plan B is to stick to plan A. Sorry guys, but following your dreams may not mean money yet. But really, if that's what it's about, than maybe you're in it for all the wrong reasons. Maybe that isn't really what you wanted in the first place. I'm seeing so many of my closest friends lose hope in their ability to reach their goals, and that just eats me alive. Truly. I have taken on the heartaches of so many people that my own heart was about to burst. I have so much anxiety and stress. I worry about everyone more than anyone could possibly know. I worry so much about other people that I have forgotten to worry about myself. And when I do worry about myself, I worry that I'm worrying too much! 

I need to learn to let go.

 

 I think I may be getting the idea, though. I haven't had this many good days in a long while. I really must thank the lovely and talented people that I have been blessed to work with in Ghosts of Provincetown, and my family who will love and support me no matter what. I really couldn't have been able to experience this emotional high without them. I love it!

In other news, I wish all of you out-of-towners could have been in NYC today. I know rainy days in the city hardly sound appealing, but today was just perfect for warm tea, a cozy sweater and a book. I love days like this. It just brought me some much needed peace in my buzzing brain. I need more days like these to get myself together. I don't know when it happened, but somewhere in the past year, I lost some of myself that I have grown to treasure. The part of me that would write obsessively in my journal, and plan out my week in color coded fashion in my lovely planners. I'm just ready to start September and get some change in my life. Changing seasons seems just right. Anyway, it's approaching 3am and I have no idea how I'm awake, considering I'm coming up on a 24 hour day. 

This mind of mine... it just won't stop buzzing!

I hope all is well and that y'all are keeping it real. Loves ya.

xo

am

In a New York state of mind

Oh bloggy blog bloggerstein. How I forget about thee. Here is the latest for all my lovely readers:

GHOSTS OF PROVINCETOWN: September 2-5. Come see it. It will be fantastic. (Industry people in attendance! Aaamaazzzingg! And scary. :) )

Work, work, work work work. 

A Coney Island adventure today made me smile and I was incredibly happy to ride the Cyclone and play frisbee with some of my favorite people.

Counting down the days til I go home to see my mom and dad. I need my family right now more than most people would suspect. 

 

I love me some cookies.

And.. I'm being very general right now. I have much to discuss but no desire to share all that info today. If something is up concerning you, you know about it. Everyone else: You rock. I love you. Life is GOOD.

NYC.

I love these days when I remember why I'm here....

Beach!

Tired? 

Overwhelmed? 

Frustrated? 

The perfect cure awaits along the shore! Grab a towel and some sunscreen, a few friends and possibly a book and it is a guarantee that those anxieties with float away to sea. Say goodbye to your problems and hello to a fresh outlook on life. 

The beach.

My friend and yours.

xo,

am