My Life According to Marc Broussard

Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions. Pass it on to at least 10 people and include me. You can't use the band I used. Try not to repeat a song title. It's a lot harder than you think! Repost as "My Life According to (band name)."

Pick your Artist:
Marc Broussard

Are you a male or female?
Evangeline Rose

Describe yourself:
Take it or Leave It

How do you feel:
Nothing Wrong

Describe where you currently live:
Home

If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Where You Are

Your favorite form of transportation:
Love and Happiness

Your best friend is:
Someone You Know

What's the weather like?
Inner City Blues

Favorite time of day:
Another Night Alone

If your life was a TV show, what would it be called:
The Wanderer

What is life to you:
Let the Music Get Down in Your Soul

Your fear:
Evil Things

What is the best advice you have to give:
Power's in the People

Thought for the Day:
Save Me

How I would like to die:
Lonely Night in Georgia

My soul's present condition:
Rocksteady

My motto:
Momentary Setback

Cry til you Vomit, Laugh til you Vomit.

Well, I guess life is like a roller coaster. I wish there was something less cliche to say about life that relates to its' endless ups and downs, but I honestly can't think of any better way to say it. And what's wrong with a cliche if it works? Who knows. I do know that I had a complete breakdown on Wednesday. I sobbed for a good 40 minutes, almost threw up because of it and stayed in bed the entire next day, praising the Lord I didn't have to work. After my collapse, I had nothing left to feel. I had no energy. I had no fear. I had no anger or frustration or sadness. I just had me. My mind was blank because my body just couldn't handle it at that point. Not anymore. I've held on to all of it for so long that it just needed clear out. So my mind and body were empty. Granted that isn't much better than being bottled up with every intense emotion imaginable, but it did feel nice to have a clear head for the first time in months. Once I returned to work, not one thing bothered me. And then I found out I got cast in a show. My heart hasn't felt that joy in 2 years. I haven't been in a show for TWO YEARS.  I am just so happy to finally be involved in something. And then I discovered I am going to be in a web series as well! I feel giddy knowing that this is the part of my roller coaster ride that climbs up a steep mountain. I'm just hoping that the climb up lasts a bit longer than it has previously.

Here's to getting through all the beastly so we can truly enjoy the brilliant.

xo

am

Oh bother.

It's funny to me how in a matter of seconds I can go from feeling extraordinarily happy to completely depressed with my whole self. This is the part of New York City living that I never accounted for. I knew there was going to be hard work involved, but I never grasped that every day would be a struggle for me. I know that it makes one appreciate the good things, but I sincerely wish that I could have just a few more good things thrown in. I'm really just in a giant slump of crapola. I'm tired of it, I just don't know how to fix it. Paycheck to paycheck, working my butt off for very little and sacrificing why I'm in this city to begin with just doesn't help to put me in a better mood. I want to kick things. And cuss. And scream.

I think right now I'll just blast some music and try and muffle my melancholy mind.

Maybe soon it will get better.

All smiles.

Here is an update for you, my fellow bloggers!

I AM EXTREMELY HAPPY!

I don't think I've really said that on here. I'm well-fed, I'm seeing Harry Potter this week, I love my friends, I get to see my parents next week, Josh and I are doing great, the weather is beautiful and life is just good. I like taking things as they come and celebrating the good in my life. It's making me one happy lady. :)

Livin' the life

Sometimes, when I get all crazy and bogged down with money issues and lack of auditions and working far more than I'd like to, I forget that I live in one of the greatest cities in the world. I'm just a few subway stops away from Central Park. I can walk by Radio City if I want to. Any of my Nevada friends could ask me "Have you been in the cash cab?" and I can say "Not yet!" and I do seriously stand a chance of getting in. A slim one, but a chance. I really do love this city and I truly feel that I belong here. I never thought that I would make it to NYC 5 years ago and here I am. Livin' the dream. Just like I always thought I would. So here's to the best month in a long time and to many more to come from the city that never sleeps. Love it!

xo

am